I both a H junkie and banzodiazepines and withoit da benzo i get zezures and risk to die.. i would kill someone to get free from both BUT what DO i do and doctors wont help me in fucked ,. And withoit any of these u would probably know Who i am cause im talented in many many ways wont go in to it now….but like i Said im fucked i die withoit benzo and THE H is just to calm myself down cause i got People after me plus im addicted of course .,..what to do when its al fucked like me plese explain …and dont say tapper cause im.not a millionere ….PZ bros and sis
I’m done starting today, alcohol and weed keep putting me back in fucked up financial situations and have completely stripped me of all motivation to do anything. And yes weed can most definitely psychologically addicting. I always find myself with a joint in my mouth even if I don’t want it there.
One of my favorite videos to watch over and over again. Brandon is a brilliant speaker and he is extremely talented. It keeps me going in the right direction. Hope everyone here is doing well, it’s hard being sober, but I promise it’s harder being not. Stay strong
I love u brother!!!
That story, an more importantly, the delivery of the way its told, truly powerful & has had a deep impact on me God is truly everywhere, if we only open our eyes to see… God Bless you Brandon
Dang it novak. U brought me one step further. Keep on keeping on. X
I'm recovering from suboxone stoped taking a week ago.. without rehab. I tell u torture would be a cake walk compared to this. I'm living in a freight truck and working as I'm 1000 miles away detoxing far away from my doctor who prescribed it to me
Exactly what I feel like sometimes .that I'm the drugs bitch. And it controls what and were I I go. And itvrobs me of my money .and it also robs me of my family and friends.and if that wasn't enough it got me put in jail for 21 months..I'm determined not to let it get the better of me. Thanks for this really good talk as well.
I've seen this video in its full length about three times now and I'm bout to watch it again. Once before my recovery, during my recovery and once in rehab after a relapse. Now with 9 months and a few days, this shit is still just at good. This video is fuckin awesome.
Wow
Thank you thank you thank you! Thanks for sharing your story!
This is amazingly powerful – it should be mandatory viewing for everybody trying to get sober and I thank Brandon for sharing his story.
"I've accepted that if I continue to drink or drug that I will die, but worse than that I won't die – I'll wake up every day and use against my will"
Please if you’re reading this and are hooked on something, please use the time left in the coronavirus lockdown to detox while you don’t have to work. Don’t go through the acute withdrawals at work!
I’m 46 and I started using heroin at age 14 I started shootings up 17 and at 36-37 my veins where gone,5 grams a day plus doctor game 10 to 20 morphine 100mg day, plus 200,mg of methadone and 15 days ago I stop, worse thing I ever and still sick, maybe I’ll go back 31 years of heroin hard to quit
My brother used to sell himself on that same corner …. wow. Congratulations and thank you g g or telling your story!❤️
Thank you so much for this!!!!❤️. I too am an addict.
I was born and raised in Baltimore as well!!!
This is powerful! I’ve been to a lot of meetings, but his delivery is everything!
I can relate to the tragedy of choosing alcohol and drugs over a dream you've “lived and breathed" since childhood. Looking at everything you've ever wanted yet turning your back on it in an instant.
“I had a lot of good times high. But somewhere along the line that addiction became a full-time job. A job that paid nothing but pain and misery.."
This is SO fucking real. Brandon Novak and Chris Herren, when they speak everytime you FEEL it. True junkies, recovering junkies whatever you are, KNOW this all to be so true.
I come back to this particular upload every few months. I find it one of the most inspiring of them all, but the common theme I see among these people in recovery is the brutal honesty.
It's like they have lived for so long in the depressive depths of addiction and the methods we all employ to get what we need that there's simply no room left for bullshit any more. It's incredibly inspiring and I hope that people get the help they need by listening to these guys.
Thank you for sharing Brandon. I know that relapse can literally happen anytime so stay one step ahead of the disease and make your meetings. Stay strong and keep inspiring other people to better their lives. 💯
The honesty is everything, this video is amazing.
Thank you!
I am Dutch, and meetings online are hard to connect to people
GOOD FOR YOU!!!
Never explains why he wants sobriety
The way he recounts the state of his life and his existence during those times juxtaposed with what it should have been; the promise of his skating career, the success of his book, the movies, his support system, etc… these details are crucial in driving home the fact that circumstance doesn't create, justify, or cure addiction. He delivers these points in such an artful way, almost like slam poetry.
Everyone needs to watch this. It shows that wherever you are now, you can be in the opposite position in a matter of years for better or worse, and you can always bounce back from the worst.
Day 5 without heroin. I had 3 years sober, I relapsed and I also gave away a wonderful woman and that was the perfect excuse to relapse full board. I have made it a week sober 3 times in the last couple months just to relapse and start the cycle over again. I feel empty, dont wanna eat and havent slept more than 3 hours a night. I set up a appointment to talk to a doctor about MAT treatment, hoping for s better success rate. This last relapse has been the worst of all and I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. This is my 3rd time watching this video, your story is inspiring and I do want what you have and you have gave a insight of what it takes. I'm disappointed that I let myself relapse after 3 years but I let my addiction call the shots. I'm trying to remember the bad times from heroin and not just the times that my addiction wants me to remember. Thank you for telling your story
To funny but not the insanity of trying to do it successfully 2e cant do that lol
Absolutely wonderful!
still dont know who he is… never heard of him lol but great video
Fuck this hit me strong 🙏🏻
I am an alcoholic. It’s hard to just be “done” with alcohol. My drinks just wash away who I was, I don’t even know who I am. I’ve lost friends when I’ve opened up, because I just front a sober life and appearance. I’m a loser drunk, who functions well but knows how shitty they’ve become. A ghost of themselves. I’ve grown to hate myself, because I drink, and know I can change. I don’t change, and it’s a horrible cycle. I don’t know how to live life without alcohol… “just don’t drink” right? I will try again.
More addicts should watch this, it hits your soul 😢
Mother, a nuclear physicist and in the medical profession, probably wasn't home that much to love her son. Father an alcoholic, and died… That's heaps of trauma that fuels addiction, it's a brain disease only in a sense, it's developed in childhood. Drugs and alcohol aren’t you’re problem, they’re your solutions?
I both a H junkie and banzodiazepines and withoit da benzo i get zezures and risk to die.. i would kill someone to get free from both BUT what DO i do and doctors wont help me in fucked ,. And withoit any of these u would probably know Who i am cause im talented in many many ways wont go in to it now….but like i Said im fucked i die withoit benzo and THE H is just to calm myself down cause i got People after me plus im addicted of course .,..what to do when its al fucked like me plese explain …and dont say tapper cause im.not a millionere ….PZ bros and sis
I’m done starting today, alcohol and weed keep putting me back in fucked up financial situations and have completely stripped me of all motivation to do anything. And yes weed can most definitely psychologically addicting. I always find myself with a joint in my mouth even if I don’t want it there.
One of my favorite videos to watch over and over again. Brandon is a brilliant speaker and he is extremely talented. It keeps me going in the right direction. Hope everyone here is doing well, it’s hard being sober, but I promise it’s harder being not. Stay strong
I love u brother!!!
That story, an more importantly, the delivery of the way its told, truly powerful & has had a deep impact on me
God is truly everywhere, if we only open our eyes to see… God Bless you Brandon
Dang it novak. U brought me one step further. Keep on keeping on. X
I'm recovering from suboxone stoped taking a week ago.. without rehab. I tell u torture would be a cake walk compared to this. I'm living in a freight truck and working as I'm 1000 miles away detoxing far away from my doctor who prescribed it to me
Exactly what I feel like sometimes .that I'm the drugs bitch. And it controls what and were I I go. And itvrobs me of my money .and it also robs me of my family and friends.and if that wasn't enough it got me put in jail for 21 months..I'm determined not to let it get the better of me.
Thanks for this really good talk as well.
I've seen this video in its full length about three times now and I'm bout to watch it again. Once before my recovery, during my recovery and once in rehab after a relapse. Now with 9 months and a few days, this shit is still just at good. This video is fuckin awesome.
Wow
Thank you thank you thank you! Thanks for sharing your story!
This is amazingly powerful – it should be mandatory viewing for everybody trying to get sober and I thank Brandon for sharing his story.
"I've accepted that if I continue to drink or drug that I will die, but worse than that I won't die – I'll wake up every day and use against my will"
Please if you’re reading this and are hooked on something, please use the time left in the coronavirus lockdown to detox while you don’t have to work. Don’t go through the acute withdrawals at work!
I’m 46 and I started using heroin at age 14 I started shootings up 17 and at 36-37 my veins where gone,5 grams a day plus doctor game 10 to 20 morphine 100mg day, plus 200,mg of methadone and 15 days ago I stop, worse thing I ever and still sick, maybe I’ll go back 31 years of heroin hard to quit
My brother used to sell himself on that same corner …. wow. Congratulations and thank you g g or telling your story!❤️
Thank you so much for this!!!!❤️. I too am an addict.
I was born and raised in Baltimore as well!!!
This is powerful! I’ve been to a lot of meetings, but his delivery is everything!
10:20 to 11:00 really hit home for me.
Super video
I can relate to the tragedy of choosing alcohol and drugs over a dream you've “lived and breathed" since childhood. Looking at everything you've ever wanted yet turning your back on it in an instant.
“I had a lot of good times high. But somewhere along the line that addiction became a full-time job. A job that paid nothing but pain and misery.."
This is SO fucking real. Brandon Novak and Chris Herren, when they speak everytime you FEEL it. True junkies, recovering junkies whatever you are, KNOW this all to be so true.
I come back to this particular upload every few months. I find it one of the most inspiring of them all, but the common theme I see among these people in recovery is the brutal honesty.
It's like they have lived for so long in the depressive depths of addiction and the methods we all employ to get what we need that there's simply no room left for bullshit any more. It's incredibly inspiring and I hope that people get the help they need by listening to these guys.
Thank you for sharing Brandon. I know that relapse can literally happen anytime so stay one step ahead of the disease and make your meetings. Stay strong and keep inspiring other people to better their lives. 💯
The honesty is everything, this video is amazing.
Thank you!
I am Dutch, and meetings online are hard to connect to people
GOOD FOR YOU!!!
Never explains why he wants sobriety
The way he recounts the state of his life and his existence during those times juxtaposed with what it should have been; the promise of his skating career, the success of his book, the movies, his support system, etc… these details are crucial in driving home the fact that circumstance doesn't create, justify, or cure addiction. He delivers these points in such an artful way, almost like slam poetry.
Everyone needs to watch this. It shows that wherever you are now, you can be in the opposite position in a matter of years for better or worse, and you can always bounce back from the worst.
Day 5 without heroin. I had 3 years sober, I relapsed and I also gave away a wonderful woman and that was the perfect excuse to relapse full board. I have made it a week sober 3 times in the last couple months just to relapse and start the cycle over again. I feel empty, dont wanna eat and havent slept more than 3 hours a night. I set up a appointment to talk to a doctor about MAT treatment, hoping for s better success rate. This last relapse has been the worst of all and I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. This is my 3rd time watching this video, your story is inspiring and I do want what you have and you have gave a insight of what it takes. I'm disappointed that I let myself relapse after 3 years but I let my addiction call the shots. I'm trying to remember the bad times from heroin and not just the times that my addiction wants me to remember. Thank you for telling your story
To funny but not the insanity of trying to do it successfully 2e cant do that lol
Absolutely wonderful!
still dont know who he is… never heard of him lol but great video
Fuck this hit me strong 🙏🏻
I am an alcoholic.
It’s hard to just be “done” with alcohol.
My drinks just wash away who I was, I don’t even know who I am.
I’ve lost friends when I’ve opened up, because I just front a sober life and appearance.
I’m a loser drunk, who functions well but knows how shitty they’ve become.
A ghost of themselves.
I’ve grown to hate myself, because I drink, and know I can change. I don’t change, and it’s a horrible cycle.
I don’t know how to live life without alcohol… “just don’t drink” right?
I will try again.
More addicts should watch this, it hits your soul 😢
Mother, a nuclear physicist and in the medical profession, probably wasn't home that much to love her son.
Father an alcoholic, and died…
That's heaps of trauma that fuels addiction, it's a brain disease only in a sense, it's developed in childhood.
Drugs and alcohol aren’t you’re problem, they’re your solutions?
8 scarfs is way too many scarfs, Brandon!